Well the rain was threatening and we had the name of another pair of folks that lived close by and ran a small backpackers, friends of our vineyard hosts. Once again we inquired in the pub and they pointed us back the way we came, we must have missed this one too! And no wonder, we could hardly find it with directions. We pass by fields of sheep and small houses and up a gravel drive we find a big hexagonal sign with an arrow. I think we are close! We turn up the road and are engulfed by jungle, a strange phenomena in such a temperate zone on the coast… This is where we found ourselves:
We drive up and park in front of a small house full of windows and interesting angles. It is dusk, the rain is drizzling, and a small, brawny woman with a deep-set crow’s foot etched into each side of her smiling face comes out to greet us. She welcomes us inside a cozy kitchen and sets us down in the living room, offering tea.
We meet Larry, a lanky kiwi with bright eyes and a grey beard that softens around the edges of the happy creases on his face, and Nip, a small dog with a diamond spot on his head and a case of the fleas. A small fire in their wood-fired stove is heating up a pot of rice and keeping the living room toasty, but the warmth that radiates from Di and Larry makes me feel right at home.
We dive into conversation… the pair of them bought this land thirty years ago and have built an edible jungle out of what was a field of grass and lupine, situated on top of a bed of rocks with minimal soil. The property sits right on the coast, with little protection from the elements of nature. For ten years they lived in a tiny shed while they built their home from recycled materials, during which time they had three kids. Sweat, blood and tears, of course, but the most fulfilled and happy folk I have ever met with a wealth of wisdom they collected along the way.
While living in the small shed, the wind would be so stormy that they would have to pack up and leave, the river nearby would hurl boulders and huge barrels were picked up and thrown across the acres. One of the first ventures was planting a windscreen of weedy trees to grow quickly into wind blocks. Thirty years later the trees are still doing a wonderful job, and native species are crawling up the trunks and filling the under stories that the pioneer trees provide.
They started out knowing very little about building or gardening, experimenting along the way. The key, says Larry, is observation. And Di pipes in, “and enthusiasm.” Larry is filled with such enthusiasm to keep learning, to observe what works and where his plants flourish and where they fail, what food the pigs eat and when. He spent 4 hours each day with his cows, following them around to see what plants they were eating so he could plant more and be sustained by his property. Some people may think of this as foolishness, but he has a whole library of knowledge on what native bush he can feed his animals and how their diet changes during different seasons. Plus he got to spend many happy hours getting to know his animals and just be.
We enjoy the next morning with Di and Larry, exploring a bit of paradise, and falling one of the big trees for winter’s supply of wood.
The trees have gotten too tall now, they block out too much sunshine and now that the under bush has grown so tall and dense, big trees that can get caught in the wind are unnecessary. The cycles and the systems that operate on the grounds, about 15 acres of all sorts of perennials and annuals, make so much sense and are self-contained on the property. Nothing really has to be added in as it is all incorporated in the place itself. If you have chooks, you grow their food and use their waste as part of the system! For food crops, you grow mulch so you don’t have to bring in fertilizer or soil. The list is infinite!
Larry takes us on a multiple hour tour of the grounds in the afternoon, pointing out the mistakes and interesting observations and surprising discoveries he has made in his years as “gardener.”
He started studying permaculture and found a lot of wisdom there that he has applied to his practice. A book called Farmers of Forty Centuries (a study of the farming practices in Asia) also inspired him to take a trip to China to learn more. Later on, Larry, Di and their three children travel to Thailand and China for 12 months to understand more and to teach their kids that other perspectives exist, other ways of life… one of the amazing lessons a traveler can learn.
They have certainly opened up my eyes to a new way of life, an exciting way to live out my dream of self-sustaining lifestyle and earthly consciousness.
In one of my moments reading Michael Pollan, I was made aware of the ignorance of my existence when he pointed out that most meat-eaters have never actually killed their own meal. It comes plastic wrapped in a Styrofoam tray, with little resemblance to its former “body.” I am one of those folks, feeling guilty for the obvious gap in my awareness of the food chain, and morally obliged to fill it. I have, of course, been procrastinating, as I am not sure if I will be able to do it. And if I fail, do I deserve to eat meat? Why must some one else carry the burden of my existence and will they raise it and kill it in awareness of the gratitude they owe to nature? Larry introduced me to his rooster, dinner for the next week, and took me through the process of turning bird into meat. The cycles of energy are ever apparent on his farm, a mimicry of nature, an extension of the ecosystem even, that we seem to shun in our society.
As the sun sets, we watch the ocean turn spectacular colors from the living room windows and he pulls out a pile of literature from his bedroom.
We share stories and theories, ideas and laughs. He cooks up an amazing Thai Curry, pointing out that all cooks should be gardeners and all gardeners should be cooks. Quite logical, and makes for the tastiest meal. I drift off to sleep dreaming of Oregon and all of the knowledge I can apply to starting my own farm and building my own kitchen and how I can share what I’ve learned in an expression of bliss.
As I write this I am aware that I am not being completely honest with myself. I feel as though I should be ecstatic finding myself in the presence of two people who follow their dream passionately and experiencing the paradise that they share. Instead I feel a deep sadness, and it is hard to pinpoint why.
Upon entering their home, I knew I was in a different place, one where certain visitors were welcome but one that stayed hidden from most folks. We were welcomed whole-heartedly, even though we were an unexpected arrival, but in the first moments I sensed their reluctance to open up and embrace us. Larry was especially reserved, observing us from a distance while we chatted with Di, as though testing the waters before joining in. As the conversation continued and we shared with them our own dream that has taken us on an interesting path, a deviation from the norm, and a slightly ludicrous possibility that we know will unfold if we keep going, we found that we were kindred spirits, almost a foreshadowing of our future.
They have created for themselves a life worth living in a world that values the contrary, people who follow the norm and live in fear. Larry and Di are certainly courageous, we were told many stories about the challenges they endured along the way, but the fulfillment of overcoming them is encouraging. It is like the pioneer species Larry pointed out, the pine trees were planted to protect their home from the wind and, surprisingly, a few years later edible mushrooms popped up. As you follow your dream you strike out in ways that allow others to blossom as well, and feed you with the enthusiasm to continue. Adam and I found a few other mushrooms later on, ones that were able to grow in the environment created by the pines: white speckled red-capped ones that will kill you upon ingestion.
A bittersweet but ultimate beauty lies in pursuing your passion and forging your own path. It can be dangerous to leave the trail but you might stumble upon a life of immeasurable beauty.
Larry couldn’t be happier experimenting in his Eden, tending and observing the intricacies of nature. He really opened up when we expressed interest in the house he built and a desire to learn from the wisdom he had gained creating the 15 acre garden from a patch of rocky grass, a blissful smile I will never forget crept across his face. But for him, it is a bit of a lonely life. His dream is one that points out a lot of the ridiculous situations our western world creates, the ones that appear to indicate our destruction, which is what inspired them to action in the first place. A bit of a hermit, Larry confides that he is lonely and tends to “say the wrong thing and fuck it all up.” A guestbook full of gratitude seems to argue the opposite, but it can be a burden to live a small rebellion and carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.
I suppose the sadness I feel springs from the loneliness and isolation that such a spectacular lifestyle seems to entail. I wish to see this shared with everyone and embraced, not hidden away up a gravel path. I believe Larry and Di would benefit from a larger community as well. It is also hard to see such enthusiastic folk slowed down by age, and their dreams having to rest. The success of their property relies on their energy at the moment, hoping for a future but unsure how it will continue when they move on (although it did continue to function in their 12 month absence with little setbacks). A community would ensure that it would continue to flourish and nourish generations to come.I suppose I wanted to be part of that, but my journey takes me onward, and I am not sure the invitation was there anyways, when you put so much energy into your form of expression and subsistence, Larry admits it is hard for him to give up control.
I have learned more than I can possibly express in the last couple of days. I find myself in a small state of melancholy upon departure, but honestly a bit relieved. It was an intense and completely whelming experience, a little space to digest all of the passion, sadness, wisdom and inspiration of a bittersweet world is essential. So now I end my insomnia, tucked cozily inside of Rupertina. We are parked at the end of a gravel road overlooking the ocean. Our bodies are sore from splitting wood this morning and our hearts are heavy but strong, eager to carry on our journey, confident we are on the right track.